How can I use this to empower me?

Hi sweetie, while reading your post I feel admiration for your courage and your positive outlook in life. You are so clever enough to use your disadvantages to empower you which is very courageous. Have you ever heard the Law of Attraction? I strongly suggest using it to attract abundance in your life. All you need is to an Empowering Visualization, Create the Feeling of Already Having Your Desire and Create a Process to Constantly Create That Feeling within You. All the desires above you listed will surely be possible if you firmly believe in your capacity and capability and the burning desire is within you. As Napolean Hill stated in Think and Grow Rich, in order to manifest any desire you require a “burning” desire to make it happen. Go for your desires!